Chrismas Decorating NOW?! (and why I am crying)

It’s the end of October and I want to decorate my whole house. Seems simple enough right? The small problem is I want to decorate it like a snowman threw up in it or like Santa sprinkled all his Christmas joy all over my house. It’s the end of October. I should be doing Halloween or Thanksgiving right?

Okay before you put me in some crazy psych ward, let me explain myself.

THIS IS MY LAST YEAR WITH ALL FOUR OF MY KIDS FOR CHRISTMAS WHILE THEY ARE ALL STILL LIVING AT OUR HOUSE!!

Deep Breathe! Sniffles. Wiping my tears away.

Josh, Jack, Cassie and Jason

My oldest child Jackson is a Senior this year. Cassie is a Junior. Joshua a Sophomore and then Jason a Freshman. Did I hear you just take a deep breathe with me? Or were you breathing hard because you just heard me say that my children are all in high school and there are four of them?

Jackson is planning on going into the military after High School. He has been wanting this for a couple years. He wants to work, serve our country and go to school all at the same time. Very proud of his decision. He didn’t have to do that but it was his decision and we are honored to have another service man in our family.

All grown up my baby! Jackson

Back to Christmas. I just keep thinking how this is our last Christmas while they all live with us together. I mean I know we will have them all later on in life too but for some reason in my heart this feels like a crazy big thing. Jackson!!! I don’t want you to leave yet!

Now because we are a blended family, even though the kids live with us full time they go to their other parent’s house on every other holiday. This year it so happens that Thanksgiving they are at their other family’s house but Christmas falls with us this year.

We don't know how to be normal

Maybe that’s why I am not even thinking about Thanksgiving much. Holidays just don’t seem like holidays without the kids. It’s a good quiet little vacation for Ryan and I though which is always nice.

So I want to decorate Christmas now. Is that really so wrong? I mean what if I didn’t have friends come over till after Thanksgiving? So I don’t get sent to some psych ward or something. I just feel like I have to really savor this Holiday. Just as I am sure Jackson’s mom will savior Thanksgiving with him.

We have so many plans for Christmas for the four kids this year. I can’t say them all as they won’t be surprised if they actually read this (I doubt they do ha). We want to do a small get away. We want to go visit Ryans family and my family. Have Christmas day at our house with stockings, goodies and a big dinner. I don’t know if they will remember this Christmas as I will be blinding them with the flash of the camera. My babies!!! The four of them!!! Before one of them tries to leave the nest.

I think when he goes off it will be my husband, his mom and I standing there crying! I might be holding onto his feet as he tries to go to Basic Training not willing to let my kid go. I seriously am tearing up right this second just thinking about it.

Jackson and I have had this amazing relationship. Its nice to have loved this child for the last almost 8 years. When I met him he was this little dorky 9 year old with big ears and a bigger grin. When he hugged me his head was at my chest level. He was so small and so skinny ha! Now he is almost 18, taller than I am. Grew into his ears, still has a goofy amazing smile. He stole my heart 8 years ago. I love him like he was mine to begin with. Ok! Crying again! Where are the tissues people?

Jack Coaching Youth Basketball

We are blessed to have brought four children together who love each other and see each other as real siblings. When I say “Go tell your brother he needs to dump the trash”. They will say “Which one”. We are VERY blessed! They don’t fight and get along. No I am not kidding it’s so true. I mean the only thing they do is pick on each other like normal brothers and sister. Even last night after dinner Ryan and I had gone upstairs to talk about an idea we had for Halloween. Didn’t want to talk in front of the kids because then they put their two or three or four cents worth as well they are teenagers. After talking one by one each of the kids started straggling into our room. First it was Jackson, then Cassie, then Jason and then Joshua. It ended up with us sitting as a family in our room just talking and eating snacks from my swaps. We talked about everything from why we won’t let them go to parties with alcohol even though we trust them not to drink to Halloween costumes to what they want to be when they grow up to what they would do in this or that situation. 2 hours went by and they were still talking and laughing. I didn’t want to take that moment away. I wanted to keep it in my head forever. All the sudden it was 930 and the kids started straggling out to get ready for bed. Some kept popping back in to ask a question here or there.

We are blessed they love each other

I am not ready for this! I am not ready for my oldest to leave. I am trying to keep these moments in my head. He isn’t even half way through his senior year and I am already crying about it. I want to make sure he is going to be okay. Have I taught him enough? Does he cook well enough? Can he balance a check book or pay bills. I know by the time he goes and flies the coop Ryan and I will be worried and just want a phone call four times a day. That’s not too much to ask for is it? Ha! Hey maybe if we continue to pay his phone bill he will feel the need to call more ha!

So I totally went off in a direction I didn’t think I would go in. Basically I want to decorate now. October 28,2015 the whole house full of Christmas! I want a large tree (Maybe not as big as last time as we had to cut off 2 feet and it was still 10 feet tall). I want it to smell like Christmas and be Christmas longer.

Yes they are still my babies!!

Then Next year its Cassies last Christmas but it will be the year with her father. Then Joshua last Christmas will be with us and Jason’s last Christmas will be with his mother.

Insert Craziness …My third child Joshua who is 15 just said “Mom what are you doing?” I said I am working on my blog for tomorrow. He said “ If you make money I should get 25 percent because you have four kids and I am 25 percent of what you write about”. Then he laughed and walked off! Good Gracious I wished I made a lot of money off of blogs ha! He is a silly child!

So I guess in ending I will ask you…If you made it to the end of this blog comment below. What do you think about decorating early? Crazy or not? Think I can sneak something out each day till all the sudden it looks like Christmas blew up in my house? Tis the Season J

Found this gem

Our family pic last year

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How to get GREAT DEALS on Sephora,Elf,Bath and Body works! (Christmas Ideas)

What is the first thing you would think of when someone is having to have bedrest for three weeks after a Pituitary Brain Surgery? Health...Rest...Recovery Right?

Well Dang it! I have become addicted to online shopping! That's what happens when you are in bed with the internet and bored out of your mind. Mind you! We don't own Credit Cards. We are all Cash and Carry so I do limit myself. My husband and I talk about what we feel is appropriate and then I don't surpass that amount. Just because I am addicted doesn't mean that I am going too crazy in the area of spending.

I am a deal girl! Its all about finding deals of the items that I want. Its all about finding coupon codes after even to make even more of a deal. Let me give you an example. I shop for my swaps and also for my family.

This 6 bottles of lotions and bath gels (which are divine I might add) were buy three and get three free! I was all over that! They are approx $12 dollars each. So let me do some math in my head.  So $72 dollars but since getting three free that brings to 36 dollars. I always wait till that sale. THEN because my stuff was originally over 50 dollars its free shipping on top of that. So you are thinking "GREAT DEAL RAE" but nooooooooooooo its not enough for me. So I look on the internet for coupon codes or I look in my basket of coupons from ordering there before and I find a coupon that is FREE ITEM OF YOUR CHOICE with any purchase of $15 up to $13 dollar value. I punch in the code and now I am paying $23. We have gone from amazing scented Bath and Body Works American Brand yumminess that started out at $72 dollars and is now $23. Looks like I am spending tons but nope....I refuse to pay full price:) I get full price worth of the stuff though for my daughter, MIL and I. Oh and get this! When the box came I got four more coupons! :) For my future swaps who might want Bath and Body Works.

Then their is Sephora! Ooooh High End Cosmetics! Goes on smooth and stays on beautifully. I love looking at the Sephora site and seeing some of the deals. Recently I got some great Too Faced Products in the cutest little doll house box ever! It is called Le Grand Chateau which is NEW and Limited Edition. Its Originally $215 dollars but on sale for $49.00 and you can add a coupon code to even lower that price. My Swapper wanted one once I showed her so I bought that for her. Its awesome when you have a price limit on your swap and are able to get them so much more bang for their buck. Its on the Sephora.com site if you want to check it out. Remember to click on the add ons and get free trials of perfumes shown below by using the code FALLFAVS

I think my biggest haul however was my ELF haul. ELF is not high end make up but rather drug store make-up. It has some great products and some that I am not that fond of. BUT!!!! My friend Lesley found me a great deal. Elf was having a sale and might still be having a sale where many of their products ranging from $3-$10 were ALL on sale for $1 each! What? Did you hear me right? YES ONE DOLLAR EACH! Well I have a daughter, my MIL and my swappers who would LOVE to have some of that. I went a little crazy and bought 90 things. Normally it would be over $450 dollars but I got it for $90. Then I looked online like I always do and found a coupon code. I ended up paying $53 dollars for $450 dollars worth of products. If you would like to do that also go to Sales  on www.eyeslipsface.com and get 50 Percent off your order with the Coupon Code "HELLO" if that is still running otherwise it will give you free shipping. I hope you go and get some too. This is my stash of stuff. 3/4 of it is already given away to my family and swappers. Like I said before though! More bang for your buck!

I wanted to share some of my secrets and get it so you guys can get some of the stuff yourself also. I am now off bed rest from my surgery. I am looking for more deals though daily on my times of resting. I love shopping for others and getting some items for myself also. LOVE it! Already finished my shopping for my nieces and nephew and BFF kids too. I feel like I am ahead of the game so far!

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Imprisoned? I am breaking out!

For three weeks I have been imprisoned to my bed! Ok its not THAT dramatic. I had two surgeries on October 1, 2015. Pituitary Surgery to remove a Brain Adenoma and then sinus surgery. It was a two for one special. Since I had both surgeries the doctors told me strict bed rest for three weeks.

Its week 2 and 5 days! I cant do it anymore!!! Its funny how people will say to me that they would love to stay in bed for three weeks. It drives me totally crazy. There is only so much cooking channel (which I love) and being on Facebook that I can do without going mad insane.

So I decided today that I am going against the system and being a rebel! By being a rebel I mean sitting in other places of my home and taking a cart ride to see all my animals that I haven't even seen  (besides the dogs) since my homecoming. Don't worry all my babies have been well taken care of by my family.

I have to admit if I am going to be stuck in bed its nice that I haven't had to worry about cooking, cleaning or laundry. My MIL has been here with us helping and making delicious meals each day. I told her that she is acting like she is our maid. I hate that but she said she is bored and likes it. Makes me feel bad. Even though I appreciate it a lot! We couldn't do it as easily without her being here. Makes it so Ryan can work and the kids still are under watchful eye of all of us.

So today I am being a rebel. Tomorrow you will get great pictures of all my  fur babies! I fully know that I will tire myself and want my bed back by midday. Mil and Ryan are letting me up and about....we will see how long it lasts. I think I can at least make it till noon! Ha!

Its pretty bad that at 39 being a rebel for me is getting out of my bed. One more week and 2 days and I will be all over the place so watch out people! :)

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Why was I MIA for a month?

Long story short....I was kidnapped and taken to an exotic place to have an amazing time. Ok Wake up RAE! That is not what happened! As you all know I have Cushings Disease. Its a tumor that secrets this crazy amount of Cortisol in my body. I have gained obscene amount of weight, lost muscle, have extremely high blood pressure, pre diabetic, and the list goes on. All because of this crazy 4mm tumor on my pituitary.

Lets make this story short okay or your eyes might roll into the back of your head like mine practically did. I was headed to Texas from California for my Brain Surgery. 3 hours before we were leaving to go to the airport I get a call from the hospital and said my insurance (which they had for a month) would not pay for out of state. NOW you tell me???

Sobbing, crying, sniffing, and then picking myself up off the floor I started to make another plan.

Long story short.... Looking at tons of Neurosurgeons we find Dr. Kelly in Santa Monica who is the head of all Neurosurgery there and had TOP RATINGS! So I contact him. God was in my corner as usual and he said he would see me. He has a waiting list but he would see me. He would have to make his endo see me, he would have to see me etc to diagnose me himself with Cushings.

Again long story short. MIL watched the teens and we headed out to Santa Monica only expecting to be gone 1 week for testing, and seeing all the doctors, new MRI, cat scans etc. While we were there though he scheduled surgery (YAH!) It was still a couple days away but not really enough time to drive 13 hours back and then come back again. So MIL said to stay. Between my dad and stepmom, MIL and my husband I everything got taken care of so I could have my surgery.

October 1st I had surgery. Oct 2nd my cortisol plummeted. I was in remission! That tumor was gone! I had the best team of doctors anyone could even ask for! I cannot even express how thorough and amazing that team was!!! I do not have high blood pressure anymore, not diabetic, lost 15 pounds in one week, and slowly will gain muscle back. I am sure I am missing a lot of important details but I just wanted to get all of you back on track to where I am at now.

Did help that we had gotten a vacation rental to stay in while recovering and while we were doing all the testing in Venice Ca. Nice to be able to hear the ocean and we got a mini vacation before hand which will be another blog. :)

I am in remission! I am so thankful! I will be resting and getting better day by day! 3 weeks in bed to start with and I am only on week two. I finally put make up on because its my husbands bday. ha! So that is where I have been. Tried to make it short and sweet and to the point. I am going to write a blog when I am feeling better that's more detailed as I am not really suppose to be up yet but I snuck downstairs while everyone was sleeping this morning. Better get back to bed before the MIL comes after me :) PS she saved our lives watching four teenagers for 3 weeks!