College already? She is just a Senior!

I am seriously freaking out. Wouldn't you? Ok, as most of you know I have four teenagers. Jackson graduated last year but we didn't do applications for school or scholarships as he is going in the US Army. I love the fact he is going to serve our country and get a great job Welding. I mean heck they give you every certificate so when he decides to leave the Military he will have a great paying job. I am so proud of him!!

Next is Cassie. She wants to go to a UC school. She also wants to be a Nurse. Its amazing how much UC Davis or UC Irvine or UCLA is! I mean MAN!!!! Its crazy!!!!

Cassie thankfully has the grades to get into those schools. She has a 4.14 GPA. Today we literally spent hours upon hours doing the application to the UC schools. It amazes me that she is a Senior ....Its ONLY almost OCTOBER and we are having to turn in all applications by Nov. 1st! How are parents suppose to know this stuff? I am so glad today we decided to sit down and start looking for scholarships for whatever nursing program she decides to go into. She would like to get a Bachelor in Sciences for Nursing.

I actually pulled my other two boys into the kitchen today to talk to them about what Colleges are asking for. Its not JUST GPA but also extracurricular activities, Awards, Jobs, Volunteering for your community, and much much more. Seriously you have to be an all around child to get into College these days. It was cute to see the boys talking about what they have already been doing and what they were going to add just to be able to get into college in a couple years.

This year Cassie graduates, next year is Joshua and the year after that is Jason. I swear by the time Jason graduates I will be totally a pro at this! You need a scholarship! Bam here is one! You want to get into what college? Oh I know the deadline! Bam! :) I cant help but to laugh at myself.

I feel like everyone can get into some sort of College or University. There are so many programs to help pay. Even Scholarships! Did you know we filled out a scholarship because Cassie's Great Great Grandfather was in WW1 for more than 4 months. YES THEY EVEN HAVE A SCHOLARSHIP FOR THAT! Crazy huh!

I am thankful I have good kids. We are lucky this year with Cassie since she does always have straight A's. She also has played sports (Volleyball, Basketball and Softball). She has been on ASB and also Class President and Leadership. She has worked during the summers and all our kids have always volunteered in our community. Makes me feel good like we are doing a semi good job. All our kids have always gotten good to great grades, sports, working and volunteering. Oh and lets not forget they do have plenty of time to be crazy teenagers too (and even sleep in). Totally off the subject but I probably am the only mom in Big Valley that has a 930 bedtime for my kids. Ten o'clock if your a Senior. I think with all the stuff the kids do they need to have good sleep!

Anyways, I am excited and yet a little nervous about the up and coming months to get this all done. I hope that Cassie and I are organized enough to get everything done in a timely fashion. You should see how many things are on my calendar now just for deadlines. Man! Deadlines! Yikes!

Its kind of fun though because you are spending time with your child. Each year I will have that time with each of my boys too. By the time Jason Graduates I am going to be a pro~!

Pray for us so we get into the right schools for what she wants to accomplish in life. If you know of any Scholarships opportunities please make sure to write to me in the comments! We could always use the help!

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Organize my Life

I need someone to come organize my life. Oh and for free ha! This morning I was up and out the door by 6am. Had to meet the Cargo Container guy in town and take him to our new land. Of course I had to grab a coffee first at our only gas station in town. She laughed at me when asked how many shots I wanted. I said 22 please :) She decided for my health and the fact we are friends that maybe 3 was good. All I have to say is the world is lucky I managed to put on eyeliner and mascara:)

The kids were having big days too. Picture day, Field trip to a College, Cake Sale (for which I made the creepiest cupcakes), a Junior Feed at the Volleyball Game and Football Practice.

I need someone to come organize my time and my life. I am falling behind. Do you guys feel like your ever falling behind? I met with my contracting friend Christine at 8 and we started working on permits for our house, construction and the land. Did I say her mind works better in the morning than mine. Went to our new land. We bought 20 acres in town. All I can say is I will be sooooooooooo excited when I don't live on a 15 mile dirt road. I am not even sure what color my new car is. Come to think of it. Not sure what any of the colors of the cars or trucks are. Dirt! Is that a color? It should be!

It was a nice day to walk the whole plot and measure every last inch of where things had to be and where they are going. Thank goodness for Christines contracting mind~! Love her! It helps she is my friend too so its not boring while we are doing everything. After hours of paperwork, walking, her drawing plot plans I was off to go back to my house. The kids actually beat me home for once.

As soon as I walked in the door the questions started:) Love that about my kids. Also that they want to tell you about their day and what have been going on. Some days they really can be a breath of fresh air.

I got a lot done today but I need someone to come and organize my life. I have more paperwork to do and organizing it to go and turn it in tomorrow. All I can see right now is that I need to do another load of laundry and have to water my plants and lawn first. How do you guys do it all if you have had a long day? Do you let some things go? Or just get it done because its not going to do it itself? I personally am just gonna do it anyways.

All I know is 22 shots of espresso would be great right now:) I am super excited about our land and house though. Now we just have to get it so the house is on the land. Its going to be a big process but once its done I am going to sit on my porch and drink as many coffees as I want. Oh and sleep in:)

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BAD MOMS (no spoiler)

I have been wanting to see this movie forever. A bunch of us planned on seeing it at our own screening but that feel through because well....we are moms and everyone is busy. I did end up seeing it thought two days in a row. Yes...I saw it twice. I laughed just as much the second time as I did the first!!

The first day I went with my friend Christy, MIL and she invited some fun friends as well. We went to Mexican and then the movie. It was GREAT! Laughed so hard I thought I might pee myself.

The second day I finally talked my friend Megan into going. Cassie and I went and picked her up and away we went. It was interesting because the first time I saw it I was not going to take Cassie but then I realized I have to let go a little because in a month she is 18. She probably hears worse at school. Actually I know she does.

I laughed just as much the second time as I did the first!

Now lets get to the nitty gritty of this blog!!

I loved this movie because it really showed that no mom is perfect. NO MOM!! That everyone has dirt on them in some way or another. It also shows how much us moms care about our kids and try to do our best. Not the "best" of someone else's standards but to OUR best! It shows you no matter what your kid is doing, even when they drive you crazy... that we still love them very much! It even showed that realisticly  we should be not judging others. We don't know what's going on in their lives.

Now this may not be a God movie and maybe a lot of Christians wouldn't go to this movie (or maybe they would....I am not judging) but it really showed me some similarities.

Who knows I will probably be judged for writing this but just know that we all have different views on things. I took some of what I saw and laughed at it because I could relate to it in the movie and thought about it in the Christian sense too.

Treat others as you would want to be treated. Lets try and stop judging. I know I do it too and I am always working on it. Does it matter if you bring donut holes to a bake sale or you spent hours making cupcakes yourself? As long as the money is going to your kids right? I am not saying that those beautiful cupcakes didn't take you a long time and that you aren't awesome for it but the person who is working a lot and maybe who doesn't have time to make cupcakes instead  grabs the donut holes is just as amazing.

Lets stop judging. I mean seriously none of us like to be judged. We all know how it feels to be judged in life. None of us has escaped judgment I assure you.

Being Vulnerable and Real and Raw is okay! Personally I love my friends who can tell me their real stuff. It makes me feel more normal. I feel more connected to them. I even feel like I have a deeper friendship because they are willing to share with me their REALNESS and RAWNESS. If you aren't that way though....I get that too. Not gonna judge!

We all love our children. We all do it in different ways too. If you think about it though and look at all your friends whom you love dearly and who love you dearly......they ALL came from different backgrounds and were raised differently. That's what makes us unique. We love our children we just love them in different ways. Even if its the ones who loves them enough to give them up so they can be loved by someone else even more so.

I really loved the message in this movie. To be honest I loved that I could laugh at situations too. I saw myself in so many of them. In the end though....we are all bad moms. In the sense of NON of us are perfect. Its just not going to ever happen. I know I will keep trying my best but that's all I can ever do is MY best.

Hope I don't get judged just by this blog:)

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Morning Brain Fog

Have you ever woken up and still felt like you were asleep? Yep...that's how I feel. I have gotten dressed, put on make up (ok so I only wear eyeliner and mascara but its still something) and made a cup of tea and I still feel like I am sleeping. My hair is a mess still as you can see because doing it seems like too much work right now.

Lets be honest...how many days would you just like to have nothing to do in the morning? I woke up at 615 with the kids and by 7 I was thinking what would another hour of sleep hurt. So I slept another hour. Now I am up and feel like walking around not really accomplishing much.

This blog really isn't about anything in particular just my thoughts of this morning. You know after I just folded the kids laundry this morning I was thinking...Why is it they give it to me right before bed? Do your kids do that too? Usually they do their own laundry but lately I just have been doing it for them so I don't have to wait on the washer for my own clothes. Seriously....Do your kids give you laundry right before their  bedtime and tell you that they need a clean this or that the next morning? I seriously was thinking of going to bed when they did but NOOOO I had to stay up till it was done so I could put it into the dryer ha!

I guess I am trying to figure out if this or that is normal to other people. Like for me every morning whatever has been bothering me maybe that week is the first thought on my mind. WHAT THE HECK! Like I want to wake up to something that has been on my mind enough. I automatically say NO. And yes I say it out loud. Then lets be real I go to use the restroom and check my facebook. Oh don't think of me as a weirdo I bet you do too. Well unless you have a huge computer then maybe only half of you do:) After washing my hands....yes I wash my hands at my house too...I start reading a devotion or two or three. I think reading my Bible App really helps to ground me in the morning. If I don't read it somehow I feel like my day isn't just right.

So here I am sitting here now thinking of all the stuff I have to do today. Thankfully it may be chores but its fun stuff because its about getting our new land and house put together. Yep! I feel like an adult! Maybe I should get to it since for the last couple minutes in between sips of tea (didn't feel like coffee this morning) I am looking at an empty kitchen since I have been packing, a huge bag of carrots my husband ALWAYS buys and forgets to give to the horses, and two basketfuls of laundry that my kids can take up themselves when they get home.

So what was this blog about today. Well kind of nothing. I guess I just wanted to be real and talk with you guys over a cup of tea or coffee. I often wonder who actually reads these? If you do and dare to show yourself leave a comment. It would be great to say hi! Oh and I am sorry I write like how I talk. Okay actually maybe I am not sorry since I don't have to worry about punctuation which is nice.

I am starting to slowly come out of my morning fog. Maybe I should actually do my hair for the day and get a going. Just wanted to say hi to anyone to reads this and hopefully I will get a hi back!

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Paper Plate kind of Day

Today has been a paper plate kind of day. That is literally one step higher than a Pizza night for me:) MIL and I have been busy today with packing, permits for construction, etc etc.

It was a good day. Actually I got to spend it mainly with my MIL (Mother in Law). Love spending time with her because well...its easy. We talk, laugh and sometimes just drive without talking. That last part usually doesn't happen that often just because well...I am a talker! She probably sits there and listens more than talk ha!

We had a lot of errands to run today. Some of the stuff was 50 minutes away just because of where we are. We ran into one of our friends though which was neat and had a moment to chat with her. HELEN WE LOVE YOU! Its nice when everyone has a busy life but you make time to see each other when you bump into each other. Not just a friendly hi but more of a hey sit down lets talk kind of hi! Love that about where we live.

We are moving furniture and packing to get ready for our move to our new house. First land and house we have ever bought that we actually own. Makes me feel like an adult. I mean I thought I was so cool when I bought an expensive fridge but this really made me an adult. Come to think of it lots of things make me feel like an adult. I know...I am weird but seriously! When we got the fridge I felt like an adult. When we bought a half of cow to put in the freezer I felt like an adult. When Jackson graduated High School this last year I felt like an adult. I guess at 40 I have to just figure that I am adult. Not that I want to be all the time.

Anyways its a paper plate kind of day. MIL and I stopped at Landis which is this little nursery that also sells fruits and veggies. I said looky here this would be our dinner. And it is. Man I love grilling. Its easy, less of a mess, less dishes (especially when its a paper plate day!!!!) and well it just tastes so good!

I am stopping this blog at this very moment because my daughter just walked in and said what are we having for dinner? Seriously she just walk right past the plates of food that are sitting there. Please....someone tell me that my Senior in High School that is actually a straight A student is smarter than that! HA!

Man I love my kids! Well I guess I should go eat but I have been waiting for MIL and the boys to come in. Maybe its not just a paper plate night but it might be a movie night. I am thinking Jungle Book sounds good. Homework is already done so YEAH! Maybe we can relax for one night.

I hope that you all are having a paper plate kind of night. Sometimes its awesome. Heck all the time its awesome! Have a great night! Remember to subscribe to get daily blogs in your email.

My True Weight

Okay, I am about to talk about that ONE subject that is so hard to talk about. My struggles with losing weight.....and my successes too!

I feel like I am a pretty normal person. I mean I have good days and bad days. I like to eat yummy foods but I don't particularly overeat. Actually my husband says I don't eat enough. I think that is because he is the cookie monster and I never eat cookies ha! Damn him though because he is skinny ha!!!

Most of you who read my blog know that I had Cushings. Its a disease that makes you gain weight even if you are eating 500 calories a day and all fruits. I even tried dieting but I would get oh maybe 5 pounds loss and it would never budge from there. I was SO frustrated as I watched my body change and my weight go up on the scale. The scale was my arch enemy! Some days still is!

I gained 120 pounds. Yes you heard me. In 5 years I gained a 9th grader! I was literally carrying around a 9th grader....ok not literally but seemed like it.

I am going to do what no one probably ever does on a blog or even in secrecy with their best friend. Yep! I am going to tell you my weight. I am even going to tell you my highest weight and my goal weight.

First I will tell you that I no longer have Cushings or a tumor. After three surgery in two years (two of them being brain surgeries) I am Cushings free! So that also means that my body no longer gains the weight. Actually the excess weight that I had gained starts to come off on its own. I have never been a huge eater. Maybe when we were on the Cruise ship I ate more but that's because it was vacation. Even then I didn't get the extra ice cream or such like my family did.

I am 5'11 my husband would like to think I was 5'10'' but realistically sometimes I slouch. I am suppose to weight 190 pounds for my height and my age. Yep I am old! I am forty this year. After Cushings and before my last surgery I had gotten to 334 pounds. That is crazy!! Thankfully I have always had a supportive family who understood as I would sometimes gain 5 pounds in a day...that is no joke. My husband never said a word and loved me all the same. He was my rock. He is amazing. Most men wouldn't be that way.

Today I weight myself and yes I am still very much over weight but I am 269. I was just excited that I had gone down another tier. THAT IS 65 POUNDS IN 6 MONTHS!!!! And until 3 weeks ago that was me not changing a thing. Once I started losing pant sizes and seeing my face go down I wanted to boost it along. So now I have lost a 1st grader and still have 8 more grades to go :)

I am starting to feel so much better about myself. My goal is to be the same weight I was when I met my husband by the time we go to Cabo for Christmas. That would be so amazing to me! I know I will continue to lose weight even if I didn't diet only because I gained it in the first place because of a horrible disease.

It really does make me think that in a blink of an eye you can gain or lose weight. Its a hard thing for woman. I shouldn't be proud that I weight 269 but gosh darnit I AM!!!! I am one tall lady and the fact that I am losing weight and able to move around easier and feel sexier is amazing to me!

I guess realistically I feel strong and happy. I mean I don't know many woman who tell their true weight....especially where anyone and everyone can read it. This is a very promising thing for me. I am happy! Cant wait to see what my body has in store for me in the next couple months. Doctor said by one year my weight will be off. I am overjoyed by that.

I have one last secret though.....the other day I renewed my license and I did lie on that. I mean....I still am a woman ha!

Do more of what makes you happy!

Do more of what makes you happy! I have been looking at that sign in my kitchen kind of a lot lately. I am someone who goes through phases of things. Its funny because Ryan does the same thing. Maybe that's why we are such a good match. I have gone through painting, scrapbooking, blogging, vlogging, etc etc. I have been in a rut lately. So I am going to do more of what makes me happy! I am going to start back to blogging again. I love it. I don't know why I stopped. Life just seems to get at you sometimes and you are so busy you kind of forget to do YOU.

I am doing me! I am still taking care of my family of course but I am putting a little more attention into myself. The happier I am....the happier my family will be.

My life is good don't get me wrong. I just would like to do some extra stuff while I have time. While the kids are in school. So this is my little get back to daily blogging notice.

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Up and coming....tons of pictures of my family, what we do, and just real talk with all of you. So if you are going to read this remember I write like I talk. :)